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My Travel’s Conundrum

– To going back to how you felt and what you see! –

One and a half months before, Rovin and I undertook our journey across Central and South India studying some of the best alternate education school models in the country. This is one of the excerpts from our journey.

Our first destination is a school in Pune called Gyan Prabodhini. A school set up in the year 1969, it is a ‘world renowned’ school in Maharashtra. Haha, yes this joke is still doing the rounds! Anyway, Rovin would definitely have heard of this school before. He must have come across its existence in one of his myriad conversations with his friend-folks sometime. The thing with Rovin is that he knows too much, loves to eat even more and is extremely hilarious. He is hungry for three things: knowledge, food, and bad jokes. Once while we were standing in a queue to wash our utensils in the office, he mentioned to one of our colleagues that he is right now standing in “Katar” (meaning “queue” in Hindi). After a brief pause, with his eyes gleaming as he opened his mouth, he said that he is not in “Qatar” (a place in middle-east) but in “Katar”. His jokes are mostly as legendary and epic as this one. Now, everyone can guess what it means to be around him. It means an endless ‘Qatar’ of jokes. He is the Uday Chopra of bad jokes, basically!

Unlike Rovin, I had not known about the existence of Gyan Prabodhini until my mentor at Vision India Foundation, Nomesh Ji, told me about it on the day when Rovin and I met him to discuss this journey which we were about to undertake. He had just thrown to us the challenge to travel and visit the best alternate schools, learn from them and come back. “All of this has to be done in one single trip”, he said. “How is this even possible?” I had found myself thinking. Before I could add a flame to the fire to my mind’s thoughts, I saw Rovin and Nomesh Ji already starting to plan which schools we should visit, the number of days we should spend at each school, and other details. I like to live in spontaneity and this is the most spontaneous unseen adventure in a long time that was being unfolded in front of my eyes. I was also a part of the discussion now but was mostly watching my senior folks spreading the magic with their work. Truly inspiring!

After almost an hour of brainstorming, we had finally selected six schools: Gyan Prabdhini in Pune, Shishuvan in Mumbai, Vande Mataram Foundation schools in Hydeabad, Rishi Valley School in Madanapalle, Isha Home School in Combatore, and Aurobindo Ashram Schools in Pondicherry. We would be covering these schools in a period of almost a month with our travel starting from the first week of September.

I have lived in Meerut for the most part of my quarter-life. It is a place which is 60 Kilometers from New Delhi. As a kid, the only time when I went outside Meerut was when I had to visit my grandparents’ home in Roorkee or visit my aunts and uncles in different cities. Belonging to a lower middle class family, travel was a luxury and hence we had it in limited doses. This limited travel instilled in me the fear of travelling so much so that I would ask a thousand questions to my sister and mother whenever I had to go to any place outside Meerut; asking the bus conductor where to get down also was a big task at times. This fear continued until I went to Bangalore alone for the first time. Wipro Technologies was kind enough to have given me an offer to come and work for their company and I had readily accepted it. Within a year though, I had already left my job and had gone into the wild. One year later, I had already traveled the length and breadth of this country; from Ahmadabad to Bihar; and from New Delhi to Hyderabad. Travel became a part of my existence and a fearful boy had suddenly become fearless. But I had never done a travel journey like the one that we just ended up planning. One month of continuous travel, meeting people, visiting schools, learning about education and re-educating our own understandings about the existing systems of education is something that was challenging and exciting at the same time.

Two and a half months later, when I reached New Delhi railway station to travel to Pune on the morning of 9th September, like a thousand times before, my train had got delayed. Searching for the place to spend the next two hours, I found an empty bench at the far end corner of platform number 4 and sat on it to open and write in my diary. There is a thing about diaries. It not only tells you who you are right now in the moment but also who you were a while back and what you aspire to become in the future. As I started to write, my mind again transported back to the day of our meeting with Nomesh Ji and Rovin. After all the planning was done, the inner voice within me asked a very important question. It was probably the most important question that anyone should ask. Or was it?

As I paused for a while, with Nomesh Ji and Rovin’s eyes, ears turned towards me, I asked, “How would we wash our clothes while travelling continuously?” It did not take me much time to comprehend the absurdness of this question. I was waiting for my senior fellows to make me remind the same.

“Don’t worry! It will not be a problem. You will figure it out.” said Nomesh Ji.

Rovin, on judging the situation perfectly came to my rescue and told me that this is the last thing that I should worry about. Of course, I knew it. The question was absurd but the answers were beautiful. The boundary of being always trying to be correct and being yourself was broken, in my mind and heart. I was certain now that when you are just yourself, and you have people who knows and respects who you are, you have reached the right destination in your life.

I gave a little smirk to my own foolishness as I remember this incident. I could now hear the sound of the engine from a distance. The train has come a few minutes earlier than scheduled. As I laughed off this incident, I began to put my bags on my shoulders. I had a baggage now but I had lost my inhibitions; of travelling, of always trying to correct and being someone else. I had begun my journey to Pune, the city of virtue and knowledge.
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Philosophy

A Starry Question

When I write this, I do not speak for all but for the questions that I have had and the answers that I have received. It is not to say that if you disagree with me, you seem to have either the right or the right answer. It plausibly means that the way you have explored the world around yourself is different than the way that I have explored it.

In my last post, The Quest of Questioning, I talked about how the quest of genuine questioning is the one ultimate quest of human existence and how it can bring you close to who you were, are and will become. This quest will eventually lead you closer to your potential as an individual and to all the possibilities that life can expect out of you. Since the time I was a child, I have had thousands of genuine questions and I would always be seeking answers to them. Most of the times these answers eluded me and as I became older, the answers seem to have forgotten their way towards me.

One of the most pertinent questions that I have had in my childhood came when my father expired. I was six years old and at that time I did not understand what had happened and how it would shape me as a person in the future. I had thousands of questions which I wanted to seek; one of them being, ‘Out of everyone, why only him and why only me?’ People around me gave answers which could not satisfy me. They said that it is the God’s will and that no one could stop what is already destined. This particular statement intrigued me and I began to ask more. “What is destiny?” “Can we ever change it?” “Who decided what is my destiny?” As a kid when I would ask these questions I would either not be taken seriously or given answers which took me back to the God.

I also went to the temples to look for my answers. I did all my rituals which were told to me by my family. By the time, I got into an adult phase, the worldly attachments had started to take over. My genuine quest of asking questions was replaced with my quest of being visible in this world. And then, one day, everything was defined.

Once, I got my hands on a piece of paper which had all my life written over it. It had mentioned all the subjects that I would be interested in, the time when I would get married, and so on. In India, astrology is a revered science and every news channel in the morning becomes a horoscope predicting machine. In the Hindu traditions even today, many events are decided based on the horoscope with marriage being on this list. After so many years, finally I had found answers to my questions. At the time of my birth, based on the position of the stars and planets, my life was decided and it continues to decide my fate even today. I could see some relevance of it in my current life too, at that time. Yes, I was an angry kid! Yes, my birth had an impact on the health of my father! Yes, I would be interested in subjects such as administration and education! With all these correlations coming true, it became an eternal truth for me. My fate was sealed. And, I had accepted it.

Recently, I arrived at crossroads where this eternal truth started to take over my whole life. My thoughts instead of focusing on my actions started to focus on my stars. My past started to come into my present and it started to empower both my present and my future. Something was not right. Is my destiny really sealed for good by the stars? I decided then that it was time to seek again and to find more answers. My quest lead me to some days where I would just find myself completely overpowered by the intensity of this search.

After days of search, I finally found some answers. These answers blew my mind. The stars and the planets actually do play a significant role in our lives until we let them do so. All of this can be controlled if we take life into our own hands and change the course of our own destiny. Such a powerful realisation to have! The Hindu philosophy which believes in astrology also says that you can chalk out your own life by taking control of your actions. I have heard all of this a million times in motivational quotes and books. But when I found its existence on my own, through my work and research, it has become much more striking.

The people that you meet daily who advice you and give suggestions on how to shape your life through the movement of the stars and planets are not wrong.  However, they aren’t right either. Indian spiritual guru, Sadhguru, in one of his conversations said that when people who have decided to take on a spiritual path go and meet people who are the ‘star-tellers’ are mostly categorically told that now since you have taken life into your own hands, no one will predict your future but yourself. This understanding of taking life into our own hands is both powerful and scary at the same time. How wonderful it is if you become the master of your own fate? You can be anyone. Who will you be?

 

 

 

 

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