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The Second Time – Part 2 (The Past)

 

Read previous part of the story here: The Second Time – Part 1 The Second Time – Part 1

Pranav is a guy who will befriend with almost everyone easily in the blink of an eye. When he went to college five years before today, within the first few weeks itself, he became best friends with a girl, Anamika, who is supposed to be the college sweetheart. There was something very unique about him that made him very popular among girls; he can make any girl feel comfortable around him. That was his Ultimate Selling Point as a boyfriend.

Priya, on the other hand, is someone who will take it quite slow. She will make her friends only after investing quite a lot of time, energy and trust. Maybe that is why; she has only limited number of friends in her life, unlike Pranav.

It was not long after when Pranav and Anamika started seeing each other that Pranav finally met Priya, Anamika’s best friend. Whenever there used to be fights among the new sweetheart couple, Pranav would call or text her to straighten up things between them. She, like a dedicated friend, will do exactly that. Pranav was awed by her simplicity and her way of tackling big problems. It was something which Pranav found really attractive and unique about her.

The circumstances, however, under which both met for the first time, were not quite ‘ideal’. Anamika was not happy with the growing friendship between both of them. She knew that there is nothing substantial going on that would worry her anyhow, but well, as a girl; she had her own inhibitions.

It was one, not so fine, Friday evening when three of them met at a local hospital. Anamika had called Pranav especially to meet both him and Priya as she wanted to show what Priya had done as a result of the misunderstanding that was building amongst them. When Pranav reached the hospital and saw Priya, he was shocked. On her left hand, between elbow and palm, there were three deep cuts done by the shrill razor blade, at equal distances from each other  (she was always good at art), spurting out the red.

“Why on earth did you do that? “, Pranav asked.

“It is all because of you. “, Anamika said.

“What have I done?”, Pranav replied in absolute disgust.

“She thought that she is the reason of all the differences that were occurring between us. And since you came in our lives, you are the reason she thought all of that”

“What the hell are you talking about? I didn’t understand even a single word you said”

“I do not know. I just know that you are the reason she did all these things and now you are supposed to apologize to her.”

Pranav was constantly looking at Priya’s hand and wondering how can anyone do a thing as silly as this?  When Anamika was busy cursing Pranav for all the things he has done, Priya’s expressions were that of complete denial. It was as if she was trying hard to tell that he was in no way linked to what had happened. Well, she did not say anything.

“I am sorry Priya”, Pravav said.

“It is okay”, she replied, with a smile that will take Pranav’s life away.

After another 15 minutes of chit-chat, Pranav finally decided that it was time for him to take leave. When he was about to go, the nurse came in and asked for Anamika.

“You need to bring these medicines Ma’am.”

“Will you stay here for 5 more minutes before I go downstairs to take her medicine?”

Pranav wanted to say that he would go and bring the medicines himself but he managed to say something totally different.

“Sure. I will make sure Priya is treated with utmost delicacy when you are not here.”

(All three burst out laughing as the footsteps of Anamika going downstairs become less audible. )

“I am sorry again”

“No. It is not your fault.”

“Of course, it’s my fault. Why will you do anything like that, then? ”

“No. It is not your fault. Leave it. I cannot tell you what it is.”

“You have to.

Over the next few months, Pranav and Priya started talking to each other day in and night. They would text, call and sometimes meet.

“I want to meet you”, Pranav texted.

“Why?”

“I do not know. I just want to.”

“In a city like Kanpur, there is no place where we could go and meet without eyes looking at us. It is better not to take unnecessary risks.”

(Kanpur, the largest city in the state of Uttar Pradesh, is not a place where young boys and girls can meet easily without escaping the ‘letting our culture down’ eyes of the so called conventionalists. In a country like India, where we worship sports like Cricket, to be able to play a sport as traditional and pure as love, you need something better than just cricket balls.)

“Do you have a scooter?”

“Yes.”

“Okay. Just bring your scooter anywhere near main market and wait for me there. I will join you there.”

“What do you mean?”

“Just wait and watch.”

“Okay, fine.”

Priya was standing near the old Hanuman* temple in the market. Pranav could not believe how beautiful she looked that day. Dressed in a white salwar suit**, she was glowing like the first ray of light that eliminates darkness. The smile she wore that day could make even time stand still. She was as traditional as nature and as modern as Husain’s muse.

Pranav called up Priya and gave instructions to start her scooter and move alongside him. Both were driving, side by side, on their respective scooters, looking deep in each others’ eyes, completely indifferent to people around them, the traffic around them and the world around them. They were in deep meditation called love. They meditated for almost 15 seconds before the truck honked with all its might. 15 seconds, it was just enough.

After months of denial, both of them finally agreed the feeling of love they had towards one another. By that time, Pranav and Anamika had broken up. The reason for their break-up was not Pranav’s new found attachment for Priya but Anamika herself. Her constant behaviour of cursing Pranav got on to his nerve and he finally called it quits.

Pranav and Priya were completely in love. They will call each other at odd hours and would wake up at night just to see if anyone has messaged “I miss you”. They would talk about things as small as the colour of their hair to as big as getting married. At one moment, they’ll pause in between to think whether they are going too fast but the next moment, they’d listen each other plan the names of their unborn kids.

Love has a way to express all those things which you wish to feel. It also has the way to feel all those things which you wish to express. Pranav and Priya wanted to feel the first touch, the first hug, the first kiss, and the first sex and, they did experience it. How? They felt it by expressing and they expressed it by feeling.

(When they love each other so much, then, why do they find themselves in a situation where they are in now?  What will Priya do now? Will she go away from Pranav or give him another chance? Tune in for the conclusion on 5th December, 2015.)

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The Second Time – Part 1 (THE BEGINNING)

 

She willed herself to not check her phone to see if he had replied. It had been around three days now. She hated that she was constantly checking his ‘last seen at’ status and yes, he had logged in just five minutes ago. Yet she couldn’t stop herself. The sinking feeling to find absolutely no communication from him was becoming unbearable, almost torturous.

And then, just as she sat down in her chair, her phone vibrated. With her heart thudding her ear, she unlocked her phone and stared at the screen. Finally! It was his message.

But when she opened it and read it, she nearly stopped breathing. She didn’t know if he was joking or not. What was this?

“I was in a relationship with a girl in Mumbai. I cheated you. Yes, I cheated you.  ”

(It was 6 months since Pranav had gone from Kanpur to work in a multi-national company in Mumbai. Coming from a small town, the first time exposure to a city like Mumbai has inculcated in him the habits of drinking. When Priya would confront him about his problem, he would just say that he had no choice but to give company to his friends and that he is doing it within limits. Priya could never understand his explanation. She insisted that the ‘friends’ will never ask him to do anything like that. But, he did not listen. They fought; over and over and, talked; lesser and lesser.)

Before Priya could read further on, she felt her heart has missed a beat and her tears have picked up the storm.

“I am sorry. I am not sure whether I have the right to say sorry to you. Leave me forever, Priya. I am not someone you deserve to spend your life with. I am not someone you would want to introduce your parents with. I am the worst possible person on this planet. Please hate me. Please don’t trust me. I have given you great pains. This is my truth.”

Priya was trying to muster all her strength to write something but she couldn’t get her hands move. She tried to shout out loud but her voice would not come out. She felt that the chair underneath her has gulped her into a deep well of darkness from where she would never come out.  She was more than numb and less than living. She felt that someone has poked a needle at the core of her heart and she couldn’t decide whether it had killed her or liberated her?

“I know”, Priya wrote.

“You know?” Pranav replied.

“Do you remember the first time we met, Pranav?

Read what happens next on 3rd December, 2015. Be prepared to get sugar coated with the story of love, infidelity and courage. 

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The Smiling Mother!

This poem depicts a relationship shared between a mother and his son. The poem will take you through 5 different stages of their relationship and one mother’s eternal love for his son.

The first paragraph talks about their relationship when the child is in his mother’s womb. The second paragraph describes the life of a mother getting changed in terms of her priorities. The third paragraph talks about the relationship getting changed when her son is a grown up teenager. The fourth paragraph talks about a mother remembering her son while he is away. The fifth paragraph, well, I will let you think about that on your own.

Kicking around in her womb,

eyes close and without a wound,

Sleeping in and tickling out,

Smiling in and blushing loud.

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Jovial tears dropping down,

Looking at those colour brown,

Caring for that gentle frown, and,

Acting like a serious clown.

Yesteryear’s queen turned photographer,

Once only a wife, turned someone else’s life.

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Embryo shouting when turned seed,

wondering why does she pay heed?

Soon realizing what she needs,

It’s either the embryo or the seed.

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Mr.Seed gone away,

to a land far away.

Walking down by the bay,

It’s him she thinks, all the way.

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Sleeping finally on burning fire,

She still smiles.

My son is successful now, she thought.

Maybe that is why, he didn’t have the time.

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Bhagat Ki Dulhan – Azadi!

Freedom is a word which means: the state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint.  It holds dear to all of us. As kids, when we learnt our lessons on independence, we were told that our country first kissed the soul of freedom on  15th August 1947. A day when the lives of our ancestors  changed forever, and was hoped it changed for good. I remember, as a kid, the only time I took part in any dancing activity, was when I danced on the tunes of “Ae vatan, ae vatan, humko teri kasam”. At that time, I didn’t know the meaning of any word of that song, but I cared about it. I cared about taking care of the song because my teachers told me it was like caring for my own country. And, today, when I know the meaning of each and every word of that song, I feel that we, as India’s countrymen, have stopped caring about it. For us, it’s just another song.

Today is not just another day. And, yes, today is not only Sunday. Today is a special day in the history of our country. It’s a day when 3 individuals, Shaheed Bhagat Singh, Raj Guru and Sukhdev, laughed at their own demise 83 years before. It’s a day to be proud of. It’s a day to understand that the freedom which we have today is not because we are lucky enough to get it, it’s because someone fought for it, someone died for it. Freedom, as simple as it sounds, is hard to achieve. And, someone provided it to us not because he/she didn’t have a choice, it’s because they wanted us to live in a country we could call our home.

Bhagat Singh is a Shaheed to most of us. But, when I asked a guy of  the same age as mine who lives right next door to me, he asked me if he lives nearby. This is Bhagat Singh for him. No wonder, he’s a revolutionary terrorist, and thus not a Shaheed, for our Central Government too.

But, today , I will tell you Bhagat Singh’s views on some issues which I believe everybody should know, quoting from the texts of the book, “INDIA’S STRUGGLE FOR INDEPENDENCE”.

“Bhagat Singh, born in 1907 and a nephew of the famous revolutionary Ajit Singh, was a giant of an intellectual. A voracious reader, he was one of the most well read of the political leaders of the time”

“In the assembly bomb case, Bhagat Singh told the court:’ ‘’Revolution,” dosen’t necessary involve sanguinary strife, nor is there any place in it for individual vendetta(individual heroism). It’s not the cult of the bomb and pistol. By “Revolution”, we mean that the present order of things, which is based on manifest injustice, must change”. In his letter from jail, he wrote: “The peasants have to liberate themselves not only from the foreign yoke but also from that of landlords and capitalists”. He said that the struggle in India would continue so long as “a handful of exploiters go on exploiting the labour of common people for their own ends. It matters little whether these exploiters are purely British, or British and Indians in alliance, or purely Indians”.

Bhagat Singh also saw the importance of freeing the people from the mental bondage of religion and superstition. In his article, ‘Why I am an atheist’, he subjected religion and religious philosophy to a scathing critique. He wrote, “Any man who stands for progress has to criticise, disbelieve and challenge every item of the old faith”.

The 2 most important views of Bhagat Singh were written above. The latter of the above made me wonder that if someone hadn’t challenged the old age systems like that of Sati, Jauhar, etc, we might still be having those in our society today, and we might still be saying, “Chalta hai. India me esa hi hota hai”. We would have accepted it as our tradition. This a small example of how our life would be without challenging the old systems which we feel are undermining the relationship of a human with another human.

We, as citizens of this country, should understand that the freedom in which we live today is not god-gifted to us. It has been given to us so that we could respect it and we could protect it for our future generations. It’s a liability that we should be proud to be made care takers of.

In the end, I should just say that, “”Ghodi pe to sab chadh jate hai, desh ke lie jaan sirf kuch hi dete hai”.Bhagat Singh, Sukhdev and Raj Guru were the special ones!

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The Final GoodBye – A Love Story!

“She must be somewhere here”, Pranav thought.

“I need to find her. I need to see her for one last time before she goes back to Mumbai. “

Today is the day when the love of Pranav’s life is going back to Mumbai after her semesters break is over. And she isn’t coming back for another 6 months.

“Priya, where are you?” he called her.

“I am standing right here Pranav. Why don’t you come? I want to see you. Please come na.”

Pranav wondered in irritated amazement and thought where the hell she is. He has visited the Delhi Railway station quite often and he could not understand why he is not able to see her even when the station is at its quietest possible.

(It is 4 A.M in the morning and Pranav, after travelling the length and breadth of the platform a record 4 times in 4 minutes, seemed to lose his cool when the phone rang)

“Where are you Pranav? Tell me if you do not want to meet me? I will not say anything and just go.”

In the span of this conversation, Pranav recalled the hard ordeal he had to go through to come visit her at the station. He had to make a pillow arrangement on his bed so that he seemed asleep to his mother who was sleeping right next to him. Also, he had to push his scooter a fair distance to make sure that nobody came to know that he is gone at 3:50 in the morning. Also, he drove at almost 100 km/hr to reach the station just in time.

He wanted to tell all of this to Priya, but he managed to say something totally different.

“Baby, of course I want to meet you. I am sorry. Now, please tell me exactly where you are? And on which platform?”

“I am standing right at the footsteps of the bridge that separates the 2 platforms. How many times do I need to tell you the same thing? I think you are not even on the station and you do not want to meet me either.”

(There is a very interesting fact about love. It has no place for reasoning. When you are in love, you cannot apply logic to most of the things. And when you are in a situation when you just have 5 minutes before a final goodbye, logic is hard to come.)

The situation was going out of control. Pranav was standing right at the footsteps of the bridge where Priya was supposed to be present too.

“I am standing right where you told me you are but I can’t see you. I have been running on the platform for the last 5 minutes and I see no sign of you. “

“Pranav, please go back. I think we are not destined to meet for one last time.”

In the course of this conversation, Pranav suddenly found himself moving upwards on the stairs and in no time he was at the top of the bridge from where he could see the whole station.

“I see you Pranav.” Priya shouted.

Suddenly her voice seemed new and fresh. All of a sudden she seemed alive.

“I told you that I am right at the footsteps. Why don’t you listen to me? Now come down from the stairs please. “

Now, Pranav started to come down from the stairs, as told, but still there was no sign of her. He was getting impatient.

“I still can’t find you”, he said.

“Come back to the bridge again.” she said.

“Ok.”

“I can see you again.”

Suddenly something dawned on Pranav. He realized that he might be searching on the wrong platform. So, he went down on other side of the bridge.

(You see, they both were at the footsteps of the bridge but on different platforms. Pranav was searching on Platform 1 while Priya was at Platform 2)

“There she is”, Pranav smiled.

“If you would have told me that you are at Platform 2, things would have been easier Priya.”

“You never asked me Pranav.”

Pranav knew that he had asked her. But he knew that doesn’t matter now. What matters is right in front of his eyes. They both could see each other now. But, Priya was not alone. Her parents, other girls who were going with her, and the parents of those girls were also present there.

Pranav was hiding behind the tree on the station and he was looking at her continuously. Priya wanted to, but she couldn’t.  He was acting as if he was talking on the phone just to be safe. His phone rang.

“I love you.” she said in a voice that could melt ice even in a snow storm.

“Wow. How do you look so beautiful even at this time?”

“I said I love you Pranav.”

“I love you too babe.”

(The train is approaching to the station. It is coming closer and closer. The engine is making huge amount of noise. But, the connection between two hearts is making its own sound. A sound that is unheard but is always in the air)

“I need to go”

“I know.”

Pranav could see her board the train. After adjusting herself in the cabin with other girls, she came out for a final goodbye. She was standing on the door with other girls. He could see her eyes filled with water.

There was a complete chaos on the station, but there was complete silence in the eyes of both of them. They just looked at each other and understood everything. They were now one in their own world.

(The train finally started to drift away. The moment had come)

Pranav could not see her now but he knew he had found something today. And he couldn’t wait any longer to call and tell her.

“You looked different today.” he said.

“What?”

“You looked like my wife today.”

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